Monday, September 28, 2009

Catching up....

Wow. It's been a long time since I've posted. Not much has happened since I last posted anything. This is a rambling post of things that have been on my mind. Good and not-so-good.
What we've been up to...
I still haven't decorated much. What I really want is for someone to know exactly what I want and how I want it, without me having to explain it. Is that too much to ask!? :-) I did make this however for the wall in our kitchen.
I also got a bread maker and attempted my first batch of homemade bread. It looked like a misshapen lump. At least it tasted good...that is until we left it out on the counter and it turned into a brick.
We went to the world's worst timeshare presentation.
Our ward's Primary Presentation was the 13th. One of the songs we lovingly called my "nemesis". I have struggled with it since the beginning. I don't know why. I finally conquered it. It felt good to work hard at something and succeed.

We went over to our good friends house to watch the season premiere of The Office. I am a huge dork and made a little dessert to take over. Make fun all you want, but I was actually really proud of it.

I had wanted to take more pictures, since I have so few for September...but this was all I got.
(don't ask)

We bought a new (to us) bed for the guest room. Now when my parents come my dad won't have to sleep on the floor next to the bed.

We had a little Ebert family get-together on Sunday. It's fun seeing our niece and nephews play together.

School is keeping me VERY busy. Let me just say combo classes are NOT the way to go. Further proof that teachers DO NOT get paid enough for all they have to do. I've felt very frustrated and down these past few weeks. Work is really tough and I don't feel like I can do enough for these kids. We don't have kids yet and so I'm sure people think that I don't have room to talk, but what is wrong with some parents?! Why have kids if you're just going to stick them in front of the TV? It makes me so sad for these kids that come into school knowing NOTHING. I have a whole new appreciation for the kindergarten teachers at our school. I always thought that kids came in knowing at least basic things. Like how many fingers they have or what their eyes are used for. I guess I was wrong.

Everything at work is so high stress. Our team at work is divided in 1/2. That makes things really hard. Especially when there is no reason for it. At least I have an ally. The best ally! She makes the day to day bearable. Plus, I've made some other good friends that make me laugh and turn things that could be bad into an ongoing joke that just makes it funny. The mood swings in our ward change weekly. It's really hard to go back week after week and get nothing from people. Just when we feel life we've turned a corner it seems like we backtrack. New people move in and just gush about how warm and welcoming things have been. I don't feel that way. I've never felt any ward we've been in. I guess ultimately it's a good thing we aren't there for the people. It would make it easier though.

I try really hard to do things that I think other people will enjoy and I feel like I get nowhere. It's like just because something is important to me it's not worth as much because it's not as important to everyone else. Maybe I just try too hard. This past couple of weeks also made me realize that we've lost touch with some people that we've considered to be good friends...some best friends even. I always have had a hard time with change and it makes me so sad that those friendships have changed or dissolved. It is especially hard for me to see this happen to Andy with people. He's such a good, kind, happy person and I never like to see him down. As hard as I try, I don't think I'll ever understand.

Anyways. Moving on from the gloom. I have tons to be grateful for! I have the BEST husband. He makes everything worth it....even when he is yelling at the Cardinals on TV. :-) We've been in our home for almost a year now. I can't believe it. I finally feel like it's coming together. Even when I don't dust my TV (right mom?).
My friend and I made a pact to be SUPER positive for a week. Think we'll start tomorrow! We leave for LA in 1 week and 4 days! We are super excited! I think it's going to be a great trip!