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I wrote two posts this morning.  One was in regards to a conversation that Andy and I had last night, but I'm not really up to posting it yet.  The other one was this one.

I am teaching in Young Women's on Sunday.  The lesson was supposed to be another one about food and nutrition, which is great and important...don't get me wrong, but I just felt like it wasn't what I should teach on.  Based off a little experience we had in class a couple weeks ago and my own feelings, I decided that I wanted to teach on gratitude.  I have been really down for the past few months and have moments of feeling sorry for myself.  In looking up stuff for this lesson I came across this quote.

Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn't
learn a lot today, at least we learned a little,
and if we didn't learn a little, at least we didn't get
sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn't die; so,
let us all be thankful. -Buddha

I wanted the lesson to focus on showing gratitude for the small things.

 These are some of the things I am thankful for today.

1. My new phone.    2. Editing my brothers wedding pictures and finding things that make me smile.

3. Random pictures sent by a friend that make me laugh.  4.  Sweet pictures of my new nephew.     

5. LDS.org       6.  Mumford & Sons new album.    7.  A nice text.      8.  A new shelf for school.  

  9. Yummy tacos.    10.  Acting goofy with Andy.

Student-isms

Probably the best thing about starting a new school year is getting a new group of kids, which brings a whole new view into the way kids think.  Sometimes for our writing time I will show them a picture of something and they can write whatever they want about the picture. 

Mondays picture:

Here is what they wrote:

The kangaroo is the laziest I've ever seen.

 

I think she is getting itchy from the grass.

Maybe he is in love with another kangaroo.

The other day we were in computer lab and the kids were playing a game where they measure the length of a big dinosaur with little dinosaurs.  I'm walking around, watching them put their answers and I noticed a kid that got one wrong.  Before I can say anything, he slaps his hand to his forehead and then makes a fist and says, "Curse you brachiosaurus....curse you."

Kids are awesome.

Life...

Life goes by so fast.  The other day I heard someone say that the days are long, but the years are short.  In some ways I feel like I can't believe how much time has passed in my life.  I can't believe how long we've been married, I can't believe how old I am, etc.  In other ways I feel like I am still waiting for life to begin.  The days can be so mundane that it seems at times like I am not living life.  There are moments that break up the mundane though.

 Like this past weekend we were able to welcome a new nephew into our family.  My brother and his wife had their second little boy.  I was happy...and grateful...that my sister-in-law was kind enough to let us come so soon after the baby was born and visit with them in the hospital and show up at their house a couple times a day.  It was so fun snuggling with a brand new baby. 

Andy and baby Landon

All too soon though it was time to leave and get back to life, which made today a rough day.  It's hard for me to gauge how much to write on this thing.  Sometimes I read blogs and people are super open about their feelings and what not and they get tons of feedback and support.  Other times I see people try to be open and people accuse them of being passive aggressive and being scared off by their feelings.  I read this one blog of a girl that I went to college with.  She recently posted a few posts that were very blunt, very open and very honest.  I really admired that.  And then I was jealous.  I was jealous of her ability to do that and I was jealous of all the support that she got.  The truth is I have been having a really rough time for the past few months.  There are a lot of reasons for it and I'm not really up to putting them on here.  I typed out a whole blog (like the one I read) sharing the feelings and anxiety I've been having and as soon as I was done I deleted it.  Everyone has problems and maybe I just need to learn how to be stronger.  Anyways...now I am just rambling.  Maybe this one will be deleted too!!

 

Is anyone reading?

Just wondering if anyone reads this!

Some Nights...

Some nights, I stay up cashing in my bad luck
Some nights, I call it a draw

But I still wake up, I still see your ghost
Oh Lord, I'm still not sure, what I stand for oh oh oh
What do I stand for? Oh what do I stand for?
Most nights, I don't know anymore
Save that for the black and white I try twice as hard and I'm half as liked,
But here they come again to jack my style
That's alright, I found a martyr in my bed tonight
Stops my bones from wondering just who I, who I, who I am, oh who am I, mm, mm
Well some nights, I wish that this all would end
'Cause I could use some friends for a change
And some nights, I'm scared you'll forget me again
Some nights, I always win, I always win

Well that is it, guys, that is all, five minutes in and I'm bored again
Ten years of this, I'm not sure if anybody understands

Some Nights - FUN
 

 

Love this song!